Love

When do I deserve love? 

Who decides it? 

I'm speechless, yet so full of words.

It hurtis so deeply to feel misunderstood, when you really try to open up. 

I know it seems like I don't try some days.

But sometimes it just hurts so much that I can't do anything but breathe.

I'm scared that I can't be what you want me to be. 

Happy, joyful, relaxed and full of energy. 

You see, that just don't come naturally when I'm in my black hole.